somedays.

some days i feel like there is a crushing weight on my shoulders.

and i can’t breathe

and i can’t stop

because if thoughts are flooding my brain and causing it to turn its attention else where

then maybe

maybe

i wont realize that the weight that is crushing me

the one that wells my eyes up with tears

is the weight of a life that i gave up

for something 

and i am not even sure what that something is.

fin.